|Posted by shawn cassidy on June 21, 2013 at 5:00 AM|
I wish I had happy news to report this morning. My body aches, and my arms hurt more than they should. My head is throbbing. I'm physically and emotionally drained. Its done finally the season that is. I like I'm falling, and dried out.. Drained. The Heat have won back-to-back titles, and the Celtics are falling apart. Right now I feel like a zombie, and I'm very angry inside at the same time. I guess that sounds about right. Basketball gets to me too much I'm afraid. I take everything hard, and sometimes I wish I could burst,and let it all out. My hate inside that I feel for the Heat and Lebron is very genuine. I can't explain it. My love for the game, and my hate for the NBA messes with my heart and mind. Sometimes I wish I could walk away from the NBA. I really mean that. It pulls me in every single time. I feel like a victim of abuse. I feel like the wife that's mistreated but keeps coming back.
The grief quickly fills within. I feel like a blank canvas, mixing with tears and anger as the paintbrush hits the mixing plate. Why do I let you bring me so low? Why do I keep coming back. I say it all the time. Right now everything I feel is stuck like gum on a shoe. The anger you feel after that happens times a million lands in my head spinning or bouncing back and forth. I'm actually pretty thrilled the season is over. I couldn't take getting sick after watching the Heat play for the last month or so.I guess was like Bill Russell before every game. I couldn't stand the Heat winning. Unfairly at times? You be the judge.
I wish I had more for you guys. But with the Heat win and Doc roller coaster. I feel like I have been pushed out of a moving car.
Sorrows we must overcome. The efforts, we or I welcome. At last strong we should become after it all. Is that sorrows' outcome? Do we become stronger each time, or do we kid ourselves into thinking that? I hope I feel re energized soon. I love the Celtics and the game of basketball so much. But how can I be engaged in it all when I hate the games biggest star, and everything he and his team stands for. I want to overcome it all. I want it all to get out of my head. When it comes to the Doc and Celtics drama. I don't even know where to begin.
This morning I wish I was a better role model for you guys who are reading this. I'm angry right now, and the way I actually feel is to real. I feel like a fool let's put it that way. Life and sorrow are closely associated with each other. By life, sorrow is very much fascinated. By sorrow, peace is initially confiscated. Maybe some of my feelings are harsh because I'm still not over game seven from 2010. I hope a few days away will be what I need. I will write here in that time span. But I think I need a quick refresh.
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